I don't know if it's some kinda inheritance that i find some ppl can be so unreasonable at times.. or maybe the main reason is that we have conflicting point of views towards certain things. I can never agree to at least 80% of what she says...or does. It doesn't really bother me much at first, but sometimes whatever she does reallie gets into my nerves.. we've so different form of perceptions and thinkings it prevent us from one step closer to reach a consensus point.Exactly this hard to communicate with each other. Is it my problem? if it is, how come i'm not the only one who feels the same way?
Trust me, It's always her who started off a silly argument...and when u try to tell her, pretty nicely, that she's wrong in some ways, eventually she always have something to counter argue with u.Or often, whenever u try to ask/clarify something with her, eventually she'll take your words as a threat or something which is against her. In the end, she answers u back in a rude manner. wth??! yes, there is someone like that in this world. Again, there are things that u can't tolerate..but i'm a peace lover. i don't create war=p
Obviously in cases like this, one has to compromise.but she's taking it for granted.And as day passes she's getting more and more aggresive and crossing over the limits.. n u know u dear her so much sometimes u don't bother arguing with her. I reached to a point where i'm alredi feeling so lazy n tired of talking to her. Most of the time i rather not speak to her. Maybe she feels intimidated everytime, as how she portrays it..or maybe she feels insecure about herself, hence, the strong sense of self defense. whatever it is....
Her attitude's so "unique" and extraordinary that i guess not many of us can take it. She seems fine elsewhere but a 360° change when she's with me n blablabla. She can possibly take and use whatever we own but the latter's different when it comes to hers. Act of selfishness?Maybe..Even a minor case Somehow she'll have her own logics as to why she deserves using it more than i do. sometimes her reasons are acceptable and i wouldnt mind at all, but sometimes, pure craps, she can even relate it to my break ups. *swt kau kau* so many question markss ..all without answers. Don't ask me. Me n the other have been trying to figure out why is she so different from us since years ago but to no avail.
maybe i just shouldn't dwell on something which is so impossible to solve...yea, relationships among humans are that difficult to handle..sigh
p/s: i'm not talking about my mom, ok?:P
Monday, April 30, 2007
supernatural
U won't really believe in certain things till you actually see or witness it.
I tried recalling but I still couldn't remember exactly what, when and how.
the 0.5 secs sight was pretty disturbing..
but i have no idea what it was
I kept quiet n tried not to reveal anything about it
but i failed in the end
Sometimes u prefer not to accept the truth but to live in denial
u try to convince yourself that such things are non-existent..
but.....
do they really not exist in this world?...
I tried recalling but I still couldn't remember exactly what, when and how.
the 0.5 secs sight was pretty disturbing..
but i have no idea what it was
I kept quiet n tried not to reveal anything about it
but i failed in the end
Sometimes u prefer not to accept the truth but to live in denial
u try to convince yourself that such things are non-existent..
but.....
do they really not exist in this world?...
Saturday, April 28, 2007
the last fun
whoOPs... nvr been updating this blog for quite some time..lolz Trial's finally over..which means one step closer to finals..arghhhH*..this sucks!
Just a recap of previous happenings ::
*Had my last mock paper on thurs..We thought that we should reallie enjoy the privileges of being a lady;) so Lyn, Amy and I wanted to go for some Ladies Night but there werent many nice places we can think of. In the end, we decided to go to Maison- with the rest of the guys.. no point going to a club without any drinks, and without drinks, there'll b no table for us.. so we opened a bottle .Saw many familiar faces there, my friends, the not so close frenz, the regulars, the juniors, friend's friends, etc etc.. which i kinda like , up to a certain extent. It's good to meet up with peeps sometimes..too bad none of us brought camera, few of my friends actually left early that night but all n all, it was a pretty ok night..cept that i was freakin' tired that day.
*Decided to take a day off from my studies on Friday after 15 hrs of non-stop financial reporting the day before..(madness!~) but still couldnt answer most of the questions.. =( still, we had group study tat noon at Mc dee.. with pw gary n charles lolx just for a mere 2hrs to make myself feel better =p went to Cafe Flam at pyramid later that night. man, i sound like a clubaholic... whateva u think it is. I'm not . don't label me that. The only thing i know bout Cafe Flam before this- they charged cover of Rm 30 for that tiny place after 8.30pm and it closes at 1am. Or so i heard.I thought it's weird-- club closes at 1am when the crowd only starts to come in by midnight. Whilst the cover charge is true, the place actually closes at 3am on fri.jus fyi..i'm not sure about other days tho. The crowd there mainly consist of older, working ppl ..prefer other clubs in terms of that, since i dont want to be in the "old" genre yet..hehe,but the music was ok tho. ..My friends were nice enuff to take care of me throughout that night.A particular guy who happened to be my friend's friend's cousin kept offering drinks to me,a total of 3 times in an hour..i was lucky the first time when he called me to down the glass of liquor i was holding cuz the glass i was holding was actually just pure water..thanks cw for the 2nd n the 10secs..sorry guys,know u all r angry bout that crazy guy..hehe chill* really sorry. Thanks son, u were so nice to make sure i didnt get wet in the heavy rain ..=)
Just a recap of previous happenings ::
*Had my last mock paper on thurs..We thought that we should reallie enjoy the privileges of being a lady;) so Lyn, Amy and I wanted to go for some Ladies Night but there werent many nice places we can think of. In the end, we decided to go to Maison- with the rest of the guys.. no point going to a club without any drinks, and without drinks, there'll b no table for us.. so we opened a bottle .Saw many familiar faces there, my friends, the not so close frenz, the regulars, the juniors, friend's friends, etc etc.. which i kinda like , up to a certain extent. It's good to meet up with peeps sometimes..too bad none of us brought camera, few of my friends actually left early that night but all n all, it was a pretty ok night..cept that i was freakin' tired that day.
*Decided to take a day off from my studies on Friday after 15 hrs of non-stop financial reporting the day before..(madness!~) but still couldnt answer most of the questions.. =( still, we had group study tat noon at Mc dee.. with pw gary n charles lolx just for a mere 2hrs to make myself feel better =p went to Cafe Flam at pyramid later that night. man, i sound like a clubaholic... whateva u think it is. I'm not . don't label me that. The only thing i know bout Cafe Flam before this- they charged cover of Rm 30 for that tiny place after 8.30pm and it closes at 1am. Or so i heard.I thought it's weird-- club closes at 1am when the crowd only starts to come in by midnight. Whilst the cover charge is true, the place actually closes at 3am on fri.jus fyi..i'm not sure about other days tho. The crowd there mainly consist of older, working ppl ..prefer other clubs in terms of that, since i dont want to be in the "old" genre yet..hehe,but the music was ok tho. ..My friends were nice enuff to take care of me throughout that night.A particular guy who happened to be my friend's friend's cousin kept offering drinks to me,a total of 3 times in an hour..i was lucky the first time when he called me to down the glass of liquor i was holding cuz the glass i was holding was actually just pure water..thanks cw for the 2nd n the 10secs..sorry guys,know u all r angry bout that crazy guy..hehe chill* really sorry. Thanks son, u were so nice to make sure i didnt get wet in the heavy rain ..=)
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
bottomless
i had SIX slices of pepperoni pizza today-just for today's dinner alone.. 6 slices of pizza= a regular pizza !! OMG~! this is madness* stress?i dun think so..
high anticipation
Can't wait for the last paper of my finals to be over, so i can finally declare my what it seems to be the longest and could b the last summer holiday ever in 2 decades! i wish the exams were sooner tho i'm still not fully prepared yet,so i don't have to wait for approx 1 month more for it to start.. this is torturing.. i see the word "STRESS" on most of my coll mates whenever i'm out or talking to them..everyone seems dead n pressured- like walking zombies carrying text books n notez.. the aura is frightening.. lols, ok , mayb a lil over exaggerated bout the situation..but somewhat as described earlier..
been feeling a lil moody lately. . i have no idea why..it could be the weather-it reflects so much on me. Rain has been falling heavily everyday particularly in the late afternoons..no sunshine, just dark clouds blanketing the sky-cold n gloomy.. just like today,not a beautiful afternoon afterall..or to save the hassle and make things simple -it could be because exams r near =.= u noe when u should b studying every single day by now..which means no more outings and less socializing..And when ppl started telling u how slack u are and questioning u if u actually did any studies lately..just being over sensitive.i should know better bout my own time management..i'm not slacking btw,at least not anymore=p
went for a drink with the usual buddies at Station One, Subang. Was the first time i went there, also due to the fact that i don't normally hang out at Subang.., i used to think it's a place with cyber cafes, foosball, Asia Cafe and Taylorians:p hey i don't mean to offend any subang peeps ere,haha that area's okay,reallie, for drinks n casual hangouts...jus a lil too far from home. Back to Station One:p Sorry,no pics..don't bother cuz there's nothing special bout that place anyway.They were playing some loud chinese songs earlier when we first got there, then half way thru the lights n fans (!!) were turned off ..it seemed like an electricity breakdown but soon later we manage to figure out the reason why when they started blasting what it seemed to be "lala" Happy Birthday songs =p yea, it was somebody's birthday.. hehe that's not the only thing which i find fascinating about the place, to enlighten the atmosphere & to make the place even more happening, they even played Benny Benassi 's musics after that!swt* this is weird.. They reallie have a wide selections of music to cater the crowd-end of comment ..
been feeling a lil moody lately. . i have no idea why..it could be the weather-it reflects so much on me. Rain has been falling heavily everyday particularly in the late afternoons..no sunshine, just dark clouds blanketing the sky-cold n gloomy.. just like today,not a beautiful afternoon afterall..or to save the hassle and make things simple -it could be because exams r near =.= u noe when u should b studying every single day by now..which means no more outings and less socializing..And when ppl started telling u how slack u are and questioning u if u actually did any studies lately..just being over sensitive.i should know better bout my own time management..i'm not slacking btw,at least not anymore=p
went for a drink with the usual buddies at Station One, Subang. Was the first time i went there, also due to the fact that i don't normally hang out at Subang.., i used to think it's a place with cyber cafes, foosball, Asia Cafe and Taylorians:p hey i don't mean to offend any subang peeps ere,haha that area's okay,reallie, for drinks n casual hangouts...jus a lil too far from home. Back to Station One:p Sorry,no pics..don't bother cuz there's nothing special bout that place anyway.They were playing some loud chinese songs earlier when we first got there, then half way thru the lights n fans (!!) were turned off ..it seemed like an electricity breakdown but soon later we manage to figure out the reason why when they started blasting what it seemed to be "lala" Happy Birthday songs =p yea, it was somebody's birthday.. hehe that's not the only thing which i find fascinating about the place, to enlighten the atmosphere & to make the place even more happening, they even played Benny Benassi 's musics after that!swt* this is weird.. They reallie have a wide selections of music to cater the crowd-end of comment ..
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Saturday, April 21, 2007
patience on the verge of breaking..
FACE IT.YOU'RE NOT ALWAYS RIGHT AND AS A MATTER OF FACT, YOU'RE NEVER RIGHT ABOUT ME..
If u think i put no considerations and give no contributions to YOU then go ahead with that naive thoughts. i don't give a f*ck! I don't want to waste my time arguing with u about something so stupid.and unlike u , I HATE to start a FIGHT. i'm a peace lover. I HATE even more, to be there and forced to listen to your f*cking so called theory of life ! i HATE most when you're being so irrational and DISCRIMINATIVE ..
I'm sorry i'm not the patient type of person.I may remain silent but bear in my mind, my patience has a limit, and if ever there's a next time.. do not blame me for the lack of respect! I had ENOUGH.. you're STUBBORN & RIDICULOUS !!
i find it POINTLESS talking to you. I feel LAZY just by explaining to u all the reasons y ur wrong because at the end of the day, u just DON'T UNDERSTAND what i'm trying to imply.. and even if u DO realize you're on the wrong side, i never get any APOLOGIES from you! it's USELESS. Cuz your face is thicker than a 100,000 pieces of papers.. you chose not to listen at all. Whatever.
I hope you're happy living ur life carrying all that misconceptions and misunderstandings. Thanks, u "made" my day with those hurtful words...and sorry, u just ruin that lil bit of good impression i have on u..U've just declared a war, just so u know.So much of being one of the closest person in my life ...have a nice day!
quiet street
it was initially a girls night out yesterday (as planned by lyn n i) but due to the pathetic amount of girls going ,the plan was written off.Ly wasnt free, amy went to shanghai, rach's in the uk n claire's in melb.. sigh, i miss u girls so much!=(
Bangsar's so dead lately as compared to yrs before..the crowd's way different from the last time i been there. Been to Karma, Hartamas and you'll know what am i talking about=p Went to bar Flam with the rest of the peeps .. There was this Eurasian man who came over to me n touched my left arm with his cup of iced liquor. I wonder what was that for.. weirdo~
Btw, congratulations to Lyn~! you're hired! hehez.. Happy for u but sad to hear that you're starting work in May :{ sob*sob* there goes my ' kaki ' .. i'm gonna miss hanging out with u during weekdays..
Friday, April 20, 2007
erased
Do not live in the past.Never dwell on it. Bitter or sweet, those are memories. What we have today in our lives--we take it as a gift. There's a reason why we call it - .'the present' ..
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
fallen angels ^A^
am practically staring at my comp,thinking if i should blog today.it's not like i've got nothing to write about.There are-maybe jus too many things ,which i thought, arent that important anyway.. or maybe i don't seem to find a reason why i should..coz those are just nonsensical items in my mind-really,like a bin full of rubbish i yet to throw.
I used to believe when ppl say "i can't", it was just an excuse. I thought, nothing is impossible. If u think u can, eventually, u can. It depends on how much effort you're willing to put in to make things happen.But now i came to realise, it's not always about how much effort u put, sometimes when things are set to be this way, it will always be this way. Static.Unchangeable,no matter how hard u try.Then i see the term "cannot" play its role.. when i finally encounter such situation. Some things are meant to be impossible..
"There's nothing as nice as someone who shares, your laughter, your secrets, your wishes and cares..someone who's there through your good times and tears, who stays by your side as your friend through the years..."
I'm grateful for the fact that whenever i feel down and unhappy,and when i do meet obstacles in life..i have so many wonderful friends around me -ready to standby me and giving me their full support. They're the ones who are always there for me,thru thick n thins,and lending their helping hands throughout my tough journey. No doubt, this isn't a good year for me..i struggle to be what i am today..but i gain more than i lost during the rough period of time. Seriously, if it wasnt because of ALL of you, i wouldnt be able to make it. i'm not doing any sweet talking rite now. It's true:) And i'm very thankful having friends like all of u..my angels ,i shall say=p I never like showing an unhappy face to my friends, esp when u know they wan u to be a happy person instead. At times i just couldnt control my emotions, it just shows=/ Sorry if i disappoint any of u. I'm still on the verge of trying..
________________
if people can see right through my eyes
like an open door that I can't disguise
I won't be afraid from the tears I cry
I'll not run I'll not hide cause this is how I feel inside
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if people can see right through my eyes
like an open door that I can't disguise
I won't be afraid from the tears I cry
I'll not run I'll not hide cause this is how I feel inside
________________
I used to believe when ppl say "i can't", it was just an excuse. I thought, nothing is impossible. If u think u can, eventually, u can. It depends on how much effort you're willing to put in to make things happen.But now i came to realise, it's not always about how much effort u put, sometimes when things are set to be this way, it will always be this way. Static.Unchangeable,no matter how hard u try.Then i see the term "cannot" play its role.. when i finally encounter such situation. Some things are meant to be impossible..
"There's nothing as nice as someone who shares, your laughter, your secrets, your wishes and cares..someone who's there through your good times and tears, who stays by your side as your friend through the years..."
I'm grateful for the fact that whenever i feel down and unhappy,and when i do meet obstacles in life..i have so many wonderful friends around me -ready to standby me and giving me their full support. They're the ones who are always there for me,thru thick n thins,and lending their helping hands throughout my tough journey. No doubt, this isn't a good year for me..i struggle to be what i am today..but i gain more than i lost during the rough period of time. Seriously, if it wasnt because of ALL of you, i wouldnt be able to make it. i'm not doing any sweet talking rite now. It's true:) And i'm very thankful having friends like all of u..my angels ,i shall say=p I never like showing an unhappy face to my friends, esp when u know they wan u to be a happy person instead. At times i just couldnt control my emotions, it just shows=/ Sorry if i disappoint any of u. I'm still on the verge of trying..
-+*+*+*+*+*+*+-
I believe in angels,
The kind that heaven sends,
I am surrounded by angels,
But I call them friends.
-+*+*+*+*+*+*+-
Heart u guyz so much! ;)
I believe in angels,
The kind that heaven sends,
I am surrounded by angels,
But I call them friends.
-+*+*+*+*+*+*+-
Heart u guyz so much! ;)
willy wonka?
Lazy to bathe Bubble so i sent him to the petshop for grooming this afternoon..Lols
Gary said Bubble looks like Willy Wonka-esp the hairstyle..hahaz Wer got?!
"do i look like willy wonka??"Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Monday, April 16, 2007
lethargic
only managed to grab approx 3 hours of sleep last night , slept at 4 and woke up at 7am:( no i didnt go out till the late hours, i actually studied for my exam today..=p trials just started and amazingly i went for today's paper..usually, i don't take mocks but since this is my last yr (*sobs*) y not.. hrmm, some of y'all find it so surprising that i'm actually studying for my mocks..what the hell?!! i don't look that lazy,do i? ;p
there was an electricity breakdown last night (Affected areas- ss17, ss2 , centrepoint, dj, du, kota damansara , tmn c ,etc .. )- the night before my paper. and i hadnt finish my studies yet.Luckily it only lasted for half an hour.. saw my dad rushing into his room to grab something..so logically, when there's an electricity breakdown the first thing u'll grab from ur room should b-candles, torchlights or anything useful to last u in the darkness.. my dad,being so unpredictable ,came out from his room with nothing useful but- a decorative stand, it's a thing made out of fibre optics, PURELY for decorative purposes, and when u press the "on" button the tip of the fibre optics will display colourful lights( n the lights changed to another colour every few seconds) .. he said it looked BEAUTIFUL in the dark.. *SWEAT* =.="
played 2 games of bowling at 1u with cw, gary, charles, joe and pw after lunch today- the usual ppl who trashed me in badminton! sighh.. i'm not very good at bowling either, the first game i only got a total 30+ if i'm not mistaken..masuk longkang byk kali leh ..and i think i twisted my wrist cuz it was quite painful -the bowling ball's pretty heavy for me.. but the 2nd round was not bad! improved alot, my total points overpowered Charles's ..haha finally, i'm not the last one - quite proud of myself, thanks to cw for coaching me n pw ! lols.. my right hand feels so weak now=p
there was an electricity breakdown last night (Affected areas- ss17, ss2 , centrepoint, dj, du, kota damansara , tmn c ,etc .. )- the night before my paper. and i hadnt finish my studies yet.Luckily it only lasted for half an hour.. saw my dad rushing into his room to grab something..so logically, when there's an electricity breakdown the first thing u'll grab from ur room should b-candles, torchlights or anything useful to last u in the darkness.. my dad,being so unpredictable ,came out from his room with nothing useful but- a decorative stand, it's a thing made out of fibre optics, PURELY for decorative purposes, and when u press the "on" button the tip of the fibre optics will display colourful lights( n the lights changed to another colour every few seconds) .. he said it looked BEAUTIFUL in the dark.. *SWEAT* =.="
played 2 games of bowling at 1u with cw, gary, charles, joe and pw after lunch today- the usual ppl who trashed me in badminton! sighh.. i'm not very good at bowling either, the first game i only got a total 30+ if i'm not mistaken..masuk longkang byk kali leh ..and i think i twisted my wrist cuz it was quite painful -the bowling ball's pretty heavy for me.. but the 2nd round was not bad! improved alot, my total points overpowered Charles's ..haha finally, i'm not the last one - quite proud of myself, thanks to cw for coaching me n pw ! lols.. my right hand feels so weak now=p
we're sistas!
Were out with my elder sister on saturday night! hehe=p for the first time after so many yrs..turned down a few yum cha sessions just to accompany her that night... i'm such a nice sis, wahahha..
Were heading to the Curve-geezz, i was there 2 nights in a row..
n this is my big sista- "HUh?!!serious??" yeaps . Hot ,eh?:P Looks & Personality wise - not at all similar. same goes to my younger sis.. 3 sisters -very diff names, very diff looks, etc etc.. i just dont seem to find any links between us other than having the same parents,lols..
Went to Sanctuary- --Laundry was super crowded..so that was the best alternative. sigh.. that place was pretty packed too-with quite a number of lala guys-hahaz hated those who were desperately goin around the club asking for girls' phone numbers..
additional pics :-
Joanne @ the graduation ceremony=) .. took this picture from another photo,hence,the poor quality=p
Ernest n I @ cafe Flam
Were heading to the Curve-geezz, i was there 2 nights in a row..
n this is my big sista- "HUh?!!serious??" yeaps . Hot ,eh?:P Looks & Personality wise - not at all similar. same goes to my younger sis.. 3 sisters -very diff names, very diff looks, etc etc.. i just dont seem to find any links between us other than having the same parents,lols..Went to Sanctuary- --Laundry was super crowded..so that was the best alternative. sigh.. that place was pretty packed too-with quite a number of lala guys-hahaz hated those who were desperately goin around the club asking for girls' phone numbers..
additional pics :-
Joanne @ the graduation ceremony=) .. took this picture from another photo,hence,the poor quality=p
Ernest n I @ cafe Flam
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