adverse chemistry

I don't know if it's some kinda inheritance that i find some ppl can be so unreasonable at times.. or maybe the main reason is that we have conflicting point of views towards certain things. I can never agree to at least 80% of what she says...or does. It doesn't really bother me much at first, but sometimes whatever she does reallie gets into my nerves.. we've so different form of perceptions and thinkings it prevent us from one step closer to reach a consensus point.Exactly this hard to communicate with each other. Is it my problem? if it is, how come i'm not the only one who feels the same way?

Trust me, It's always her who started off a silly argument...and when u try to tell her, pretty nicely, that she's wrong in some ways, eventually she always have something to counter argue with u.Or often, whenever u try to ask/clarify something with her, eventually she'll take your words as a threat or something which is against her. In the end, she answers u back in a rude manner. wth??! yes, there is someone like that in this world. Again, there are things that u can't tolerate..but i'm a peace lover. i don't create war=p

Obviously in cases like this, one has to compromise.but she's taking it for granted.And as day passes she's getting more and more aggresive and crossing over the limits.. n u know u dear her so much sometimes u don't bother arguing with her. I reached to a point where i'm alredi feeling so lazy n tired of talking to her. Most of the time i rather not speak to her. Maybe she feels intimidated everytime, as how she portrays it..or maybe she feels insecure about herself, hence, the strong sense of self defense. whatever it is....

Her attitude's so "unique" and extraordinary that i guess not many of us can take it. She seems fine elsewhere but a 360° change when she's with me n blablabla. She can possibly take and use whatever we own but the latter's different when it comes to hers. Act of selfishness?Maybe..Even a minor case Somehow she'll have her own logics as to why she deserves using it more than i do. sometimes her reasons are acceptable and i wouldnt mind at all, but sometimes, pure craps, she can even relate it to my break ups. *swt kau kau* so many question markss ..all without answers. Don't ask me. Me n the other have been trying to figure out why is she so different from us since years ago but to no avail.

maybe i just shouldn't dwell on something which is so impossible to solve...yea, relationships among humans are that difficult to handle..sigh

p/s: i'm not talking about my mom, ok?:P

supernatural

U won't really believe in certain things till you actually see or witness it.
I tried recalling but I still couldn't remember exactly what, when and how.
the 0.5 secs sight was pretty disturbing..
but i have no idea what it was
I kept quiet n tried not to reveal anything about it
but i failed in the end
Sometimes u prefer not to accept the truth but to live in denial
u try to convince yourself that such things are non-existent..


but.....




do they really not exist in this world?...

the last fun

whoOPs... nvr been updating this blog for quite some time..lolz Trial's finally over..which means one step closer to finals..arghhhH*..this sucks!

Just a recap of previous happenings ::

*Had my last mock paper on thurs..We thought that we should reallie enjoy the privileges of being a lady;) so Lyn, Amy and I wanted to go for some Ladies Night but there werent many nice places we can think of. In the end, we decided to go to Maison- with the rest of the guys.. no point going to a club without any drinks, and without drinks, there'll b no table for us.. so we opened a bottle .Saw many familiar faces there, my friends, the not so close frenz, the regulars, the juniors, friend's friends, etc etc.. which i kinda like , up to a certain extent. It's good to meet up with peeps sometimes..too bad none of us brought camera, few of my friends actually left early that night but all n all, it was a pretty ok night..cept that i was freakin' tired that day.

*Decided to take a day off from my studies on Friday after 15 hrs of non-stop financial reporting the day before..(madness!~) but still couldnt answer most of the questions.. =( still, we had group study tat noon at Mc dee.. with pw gary n charles lolx just for a mere 2hrs to make myself feel better =p went to Cafe Flam at pyramid later that night. man, i sound like a clubaholic... whateva u think it is. I'm not . don't label me that. The only thing i know bout Cafe Flam before this- they charged cover of Rm 30 for that tiny place after 8.30pm and it closes at 1am. Or so i heard.I thought it's weird-- club closes at 1am when the crowd only starts to come in by midnight. Whilst the cover charge is true, the place actually closes at 3am on fri.jus fyi..i'm not sure about other days tho. The crowd there mainly consist of older, working ppl ..prefer other clubs in terms of that, since i dont want to be in the "old" genre yet..hehe,but the music was ok tho. ..My friends were nice enuff to take care of me throughout that night.A particular guy who happened to be my friend's friend's cousin kept offering drinks to me,a total of 3 times in an hour..i was lucky the first time when he called me to down the glass of liquor i was holding cuz the glass i was holding was actually just pure water..thanks cw for the 2nd n the 10secs..sorry guys,know u all r angry bout that crazy guy..hehe chill* really sorry. Thanks son, u were so nice to make sure i didnt get wet in the heavy rain ..=)

bottomless

i had SIX slices of pepperoni pizza today-just for today's dinner alone.. 6 slices of pizza= a regular pizza !! OMG~! this is madness* stress?i dun think so..

high anticipation

Can't wait for the last paper of my finals to be over, so i can finally declare my what it seems to be the longest and could b the last summer holiday ever in 2 decades! i wish the exams were sooner tho i'm still not fully prepared yet,so i don't have to wait for approx 1 month more for it to start.. this is torturing.. i see the word "STRESS" on most of my coll mates whenever i'm out or talking to them..everyone seems dead n pressured- like walking zombies carrying text books n notez.. the aura is frightening.. lols, ok , mayb a lil over exaggerated bout the situation..but somewhat as described earlier..

been feeling a lil moody lately. . i have no idea why..it could be the weather-it reflects so much on me. Rain has been falling heavily everyday particularly in the late afternoons..no sunshine, just dark clouds blanketing the sky-cold n gloomy.. just like today,not a beautiful afternoon afterall..or to save the hassle and make things simple -it could be because exams r near =.= u noe when u should b studying every single day by now..which means no more outings and less socializing..And when ppl started telling u how slack u are and questioning u if u actually did any studies lately..just being over sensitive.i should know better bout my own time management..i'm not slacking btw,at least not anymore=p

went for a drink with the usual buddies at Station One, Subang. Was the first time i went there, also due to the fact that i don't normally hang out at Subang.., i used to think it's a place with cyber cafes, foosball, Asia Cafe and Taylorians:p hey i don't mean to offend any subang peeps ere,haha that area's okay,reallie, for drinks n casual hangouts...jus a lil too far from home. Back to Station One:p Sorry,no pics..don't bother cuz there's nothing special bout that place anyway.They were playing some loud chinese songs earlier when we first got there, then half way thru the lights n fans (!!) were turned off ..it seemed like an electricity breakdown but soon later we manage to figure out the reason why when they started blasting what it seemed to be "lala" Happy Birthday songs =p yea, it was somebody's birthday.. hehe that's not the only thing which i find fascinating about the place, to enlighten the atmosphere & to make the place even more happening, they even played Benny Benassi 's musics after that!swt* this is weird.. They reallie have a wide selections of music to cater the crowd-end of comment ..

u guys r so funny..hehe
lemme clarify:-
no the post wasn't referring to any guys..
no the post wasnt referring to any best/close friends..
no the post wasn't referring to any of u all!

.. seriously!

patience on the verge of breaking..

FACE IT.YOU'RE NOT ALWAYS RIGHT AND AS A MATTER OF FACT, YOU'RE NEVER RIGHT ABOUT ME..

If u think i put no considerations and give no contributions to YOU then go ahead with that naive thoughts. i don't give a f*ck! I don't want to waste my time arguing with u about something so stupid.and unlike u , I HATE to start a FIGHT. i'm a peace lover. I HATE even more, to be there and forced to listen to your f*cking so called theory of life ! i HATE most when you're being so irrational and DISCRIMINATIVE ..

I'm sorry i'm not the patient type of person.I may remain silent but bear in my mind, my patience has a limit, and if ever there's a next time.. do not blame me for the lack of respect! I had ENOUGH.. you're STUBBORN & RIDICULOUS !!

i find it POINTLESS talking to you. I feel LAZY just by explaining to u all the reasons y ur wrong because at the end of the day, u just DON'T UNDERSTAND what i'm trying to imply.. and even if u DO realize you're on the wrong side, i never get any APOLOGIES from you! it's USELESS. Cuz your face is thicker than a 100,000 pieces of papers.. you chose not to listen at all. Whatever.

I hope you're happy living ur life carrying all that misconceptions and misunderstandings. Thanks, u "made" my day with those hurtful words...and sorry, u just ruin that lil bit of good impression i have on u..U've just declared a war, just so u know.So much of being one of the closest person in my life ...have a nice day!

quiet street

it was initially a girls night out yesterday (as planned by lyn n i) but due to the pathetic amount of girls going ,the plan was written off.Ly wasnt free, amy went to shanghai, rach's in the uk n claire's in melb.. sigh, i miss u girls so much!=(

Bangsar's so dead lately as compared to yrs before..the crowd's way different from the last time i been there. Been to Karma, Hartamas and you'll know what am i talking about=p Went to bar Flam with the rest of the peeps .. There was this Eurasian man who came over to me n touched my left arm with his cup of iced liquor. I wonder what was that for.. weirdo~

Btw, congratulations to Lyn~! you're hired! hehez.. Happy for u but sad to hear that you're starting work in May :{ sob*sob* there goes my ' kaki ' .. i'm gonna miss hanging out with u during weekdays..

posting on behalf..

Take Gary's Quiz

erased

Do not live in the past.Never dwell on it. Bitter or sweet, those are memories. What we have today in our lives--we take it as a gift. There's a reason why we call it - .'the present' ..

fallen angels ^A^

am practically staring at my comp,thinking if i should blog today.it's not like i've got nothing to write about.There are-maybe jus too many things ,which i thought, arent that important anyway.. or maybe i don't seem to find a reason why i should..coz those are just nonsensical items in my mind-really,like a bin full of rubbish i yet to throw.

________________

if people can see right through my eyes
like an open door that I can't disguise
I won't be afraid from the tears I cry
I'll not run I'll not hide cause this is how I feel inside
________________

I used to believe when ppl say "i can't", it was just an excuse. I thought, nothing is impossible. If u think u can, eventually, u can. It depends on how much effort you're willing to put in to make things happen.But now i came to realise, it's not always about how much effort u put, sometimes when things are set to be this way, it will always be this way. Static.Unchangeable,no matter how hard u try.Then i see the term "cannot" play its role.. when i finally encounter such situation. Some things are meant to be impossible..

"There's nothing as nice as someone who shares, your laughter, your secrets, your wishes and cares..someone who's there through your good times and tears, who stays by your side as your friend through the years..."

I'm grateful for the fact that whenever i feel down and unhappy,and when i do meet obstacles in life..i have so many wonderful friends around me -ready to standby me and giving me their full support. They're the ones who are always there for me,thru thick n thins,and lending their helping hands throughout my tough journey. No doubt, this isn't a good year for me..i struggle to be what i am today..but i gain more than i lost during the rough period of time. Seriously, if it wasnt because of ALL of you, i wouldnt be able to make it. i'm not doing any sweet talking rite now. It's true:) And i'm very thankful having friends like all of u..my angels ,i shall say=p I never like showing an unhappy face to my friends, esp when u know they wan u to be a happy person instead. At times i just couldnt control my emotions, it just shows=/ Sorry if i disappoint any of u. I'm still on the verge of trying..

-+*+*+*+*+*+*+-
I believe in angels,
The kind that heaven sends,
I am surrounded by angels,
But I call them friends.
-+*+*+*+*+*+*+-

Heart u guyz so much! ;)

willy wonka?

Lazy to bathe Bubble so i sent him to the petshop for grooming this afternoon..Lols

Gary said Bubble looks like Willy Wonka-esp the hairstyle..hahaz Wer got?!

"do i look like willy wonka??"

**My Quiz**

If u think u know me well enough.. take the quiz and we'll see=)

lethargic

only managed to grab approx 3 hours of sleep last night , slept at 4 and woke up at 7am:( no i didnt go out till the late hours, i actually studied for my exam today..=p trials just started and amazingly i went for today's paper..usually, i don't take mocks but since this is my last yr (*sobs*) y not.. hrmm, some of y'all find it so surprising that i'm actually studying for my mocks..what the hell?!! i don't look that lazy,do i? ;p

there was an electricity breakdown last night (Affected areas- ss17, ss2 , centrepoint, dj, du, kota damansara , tmn c ,etc .. )- the night before my paper. and i hadnt finish my studies yet.Luckily it only lasted for half an hour.. saw my dad rushing into his room to grab something..so logically, when there's an electricity breakdown the first thing u'll grab from ur room should b-candles, torchlights or anything useful to last u in the darkness.. my dad,being so unpredictable ,came out from his room with nothing useful but- a decorative stand, it's a thing made out of fibre optics, PURELY for decorative purposes, and when u press the "on" button the tip of the fibre optics will display colourful lights( n the lights changed to another colour every few seconds) .. he said it looked BEAUTIFUL in the dark.. *SWEAT* =.="

played 2 games of bowling at 1u with cw, gary, charles, joe and pw after lunch today- the usual ppl who trashed me in badminton! sighh.. i'm not very good at bowling either, the first game i only got a total 30+ if i'm not mistaken..masuk longkang byk kali leh ..and i think i twisted my wrist cuz it was quite painful -the bowling ball's pretty heavy for me.. but the 2nd round was not bad! improved alot, my total points overpowered Charles's ..haha finally, i'm not the last one - quite proud of myself, thanks to cw for coaching me n pw ! lols.. my right hand feels so weak now=p

we're sistas!

Were out with my elder sister on saturday night! hehe=p for the first time after so many yrs..turned down a few yum cha sessions just to accompany her that night... i'm such a nice sis, wahahha..

Were heading to the Curve-geezz, i was there 2 nights in a row..

n this is my big sista- "HUh?!!serious??" yeaps . Hot ,eh?:P Looks & Personality wise - not at all similar. same goes to my younger sis.. 3 sisters -very diff names, very diff looks, etc etc.. i just dont seem to find any links between us other than having the same parents,lols..

Went to Sanctuary- --Laundry was super crowded..so that was the best alternative. sigh.. that place was pretty packed too-with quite a number of lala guys-hahaz hated those who were desperately goin around the club asking for girls' phone numbers..


additional pics :-

Joanne @ the graduation ceremony=) .. took this picture from another photo,hence,the poor quality=p

Ernest n I @ cafe Flam

a night at laundry

The girls and I went to laundry last friday along with Nigel after our silly photography session at jc's place. Yeap, Jc's (Ly too) convocation ceremony was last Sunday so we were having a get-together at her house to take some photos with her in her graduation gown.Lols, photos soon to be updated..gotta wait for jc the busy woman to pass me her cam's pics.. Lyn n Ly were busy snapping each other's pics- making good use of part of jc's graduation gown and 'glamouring' in front of the camera with their signature superhero pose.. i don't think i'm allowed to post the pictures up tho..haha, lyn & ly, can i?*winks*


Witnessed an accident while we were one the way to Laundry that night. A black Vios hit a motorist while trying to make a left turning ,causing the motorist to lose control and fell from his bike. i guessed the impact was pretty strong, he was thrown away , took a few somersaults before landing himself on the road. Thank goodness he practiced safety by wearing a helmet..Intentionally or not, we saw the black Vios speeded off immediately after hitting the motorist.Irresponsible jerk. We were in a state of shock, noone seems to be stopping to lend a helping hand so we decided to make a U-turn at mutiara Damansara to see if we could help in any way..(how kind=)) Called up nigel who was on the way there as well to change the venue since we were making a U-turn anyway- but got to know from him that there were already a few people offering help to the then unconscious motorist..let's just hope he's fine now;)

-glass of mojito, anyone?-

Laundry's always packed with ppl during weekends!- tho i hav no idea what's so special bout the place..mayb it's jus merely the crowd ,or maybe it's the location..and better choose the al-fresco area if u intend to have a nice chitchat with ur frens.. wouldnt wanna end up shouting to ur fren who was sitting at the other corner of the table..

..n this is Jc - all smiLes ;);) Ly & her are now officially-GRADUATED!! ConGRats To boTh of yA!!

random pic-Nigel n his Oakley sunglasses..lols

LOL

i dunno bout u guys but i find it funny..

There was this promotion thingy goin on for California Fitness at Pyramid and we were passing by the promoters giving out brochures . 3 of us were walking side by side with joe walking in between me n pw. One of the promoters handed joe a brochure about the gym.

at first Joe felt nothing . Then he realised both of us didnt get any brochures from the girls. In jus micro seconds, he turned bhind, looked at the promoters and asked " Why must be me ar? " in a very innocent way.*Sweat to the max* i was so shocked to hear that n if i was sitting on a chair,i'd probably fell off from it..me n pw couldnt stop laughing.LoL=-) the promoters were so speechless... expect for the unexpected when you're out with joe,hahah..swt case!

1 star treatment

ntv7-studio 1

-during the break-

• i HATED a few of the ntv7 crew members. They were f*cking rude to us. First of all, we reached there at about 11am and we were told that Gary was going to be on Show 2(recording time for show 2 approx at 5pm)..why couldn't they just tell Show 2 audiences/supporters to come later so we don't have to waste our precious time there. Define efficiency.pfftt* nvm bout that, not wanting to spend hours in that "cacated" waiting area, we informed one of the crew which's a lady that we'll be back before show 2 starts. She allowed but only if we promised to come back before 3pm. "darn..gotta be there 2 hours to standby before show2! FOR WHAT! " i don't c what's the purpose of rotting there for so long... sheesh..

• forget about it. THEN, we were talking to gary telling him that we were about to leave the when the same lady walked towards us and told us that we were not supposed to contact the contestant before the show. Swt* and calling them thru the phone is allowed.grrrr!! was already feeling a lil bit "mm song" -thinking that i would be spending my entire day there was bad enough, we were about to make a move when this stupid APEK guy,wearing a black t with a "I WANNA BE A MODEL" logo behind, also a crew member ,stopped our way and asked where were we heading to, in a rude manner. We told him we were leaving but we'll be back before 3 pm. " Do u know u all not allowed to do lidet ar?" (broken english) joe answered:"but we''ve alredi asked for permission from that lady" . Didn't trust us, he shouted " MEI EEE !! u let wan r (in cantonese)". The lady nodded. "Oh, ok u all can go la". Wtf?!!! we're just audiences- NOT PRISONERS. and goodness ..pls improve your english !!

• we were dragged by the crew members to watch Show1 once we got there b4 3 pm..felt like we were a cattle of sheeps being controlled.. u have no say about anything once u reached the studio. No freedom to even choose the seats u want. No this, no that. WHATEVER. if it wasn't for the sake of Gary, i wouldnt even want to go there anymore. I understand it's their jobs to make sure everything went well. Just couldn't stand the way some acted like they were so damn cool. Esp this guy known as J.J -stupid jeng guy with his golden curly hair wearing ripped off lala jeans. He was asking stupid questions and cracking lame jokes with his broken english just to keep the audiences entertained.(he said 'please'='Prease' , an arrow= 'a arrow' , 2 birds ='2 bird' n all sorts..)
  

• Usually i would appreciate someone like him to free us from boredom but in his case, total opposite.I don't know if i was being paranoid or whatsoever, whatever he said didn't sound pleasing to me. There was once during the first break of the recording session and i was closing my eyes to take some rest (SUPER TIRING ok?!) when i heard J.J said "aiyo,y she look so sour faced wan ah?(in canto).Smile abit la..as if i owe u 1 million lidet" trust me, it was f*cking offensive. at that time i seriously wanted to call him over and tell him to mind his own words! i didn't in the end.. super regretted for not doin it. Try sitting on the front row for god damn 5 hours and see if u can maintain your high spirit the whole time.was damn pissed off with that guy, honestly we weren't there to do him any favour, we were there to help these retards to fill up the empty seats for the audiences so it wouldnt look so pathetic on screen! u ppl should thank us instead..don't ever test my patience! sheesh!!seriously we don't deserve this kinda treatment-at ALL!!..wanted to take a picture of him, and the apek-looking guy but was not allowed to do so in the studio..wasted* i guessed he knew i was pissed at him,he didn't joke around with us anymore later on n even offered us mineral water n sweets but i declined . No thanks,I didnt feel like being nice to him at that moment.still very angry! they were lucky i didn't find out what car they were driving,or nots.. be prepared for MY own version of pimp-my-ride! i hate idiots.. *GEraMMm*
  

big Boos for ntv7 ! *bluek*

caught in action

WEnt to Ntv7 again,this time it's gary's turn to play the game=) we were told to be there at 11 am but heck! Gary was on show 2 - they will only start recording in the evening..swt* we have so much time to kill so we decided to leave that stupid place and headed to Pyramid instead.

So we were having a drink at Starbucks and i took the following pics ::




















uh-huh..obviously, JOe's not the main focus in the pic.that red shirt guy walked into Starbucks jus 5 mins before i took this pic & started "mushy-mushy" with that girl even before he managed to grab his seat on the chair.. what an urge!!!.. GRAB A BETTER PLACE for god's sake!


....few minutes later



















Still doin it... swt!* these ppl have no respect for themselves ..& us-those who needed to clean their eyes having to see such indecent act in public=p GRoss..*

part two

Lyn & I =)=)




















Jeff (zZZzzz..) , bday boy & Lyn















Choon Weng- down 10 secs for comin late *lols*















- BIrthday Duos .. and my card:P-




















Cave-another tipsy boy:p
















Jeff was doin this the whole time! wonder what was wrong with him,lols




















Alcohol- addictive.
















weng foong, kenneth & alex
A:"im tellin u,this bottle will b empty in minutes!!"
















noah:"yum seng !!"
















*cheers=)*





















alfred & i















just having a good time

celebration for the duos

Poppy Garden 06/04/07
* Pictures say a thousand words*















Kenneth & I :)














.......Birthday boy-Joe! at a speed of time=p it was just the beginning of the party;)















pEace! Pw, joe, me, michael & yi wei. wats that marlboro doin in the photo?:P















Gary .. one of the birthDay boYs :) - with Nigel & I















hot babes- yeeyee ,suetmun -- with Joe & Alex















lYnnie & Charles - my face didnt look so red as compared to his,lols















pw doing her sexy smooch:P win fei, GAry me , noah & peiyin the hot chiq ;p















the not-too-sober gang , lolss














i got pulled into taking this photo:p Jeff was DRUNK















not another cup..my poor son















Friends in need - the guys giving their share of birthday kiss=)















GAry & Pw .















Charles & I :P




















posing with the card i did for joe:) "nice leh?:P"




(more pics to be up soon)

-jOe-

All the BEst in YouR FutuRe uNDerTAkings

-you RoCk!! -

=)

08/04/07