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Mayb i really should refrain myself from posting too many 'emo' posts..giving the impression that my blog is all about nothing but sadness and complaints.
Maybe i should put an end to all these ..it's raising too much curiosity among some of u .. =p

I guessed when i said in the last post that i was in a situation like Hinder's lyrics, many of u will start questionin' & getting more curious to know what was it about.. didn't it? No point trying to figure out what's goin on..if u're curious, ask me! i may have the mood to tell ya ;)

whatever it is.. i'm tired. i really am. i don't wanna feel the way i feel now.. i'm spilling everything..

Finally I realised mayb i was wrong. I was wrong since the beginning. Wrong to develop feelings for someone who's not really worth it. Someone who's .. impossible. and as clear as i know what i should do , it seems like something keeps holding me back & maybe that explains y the problem drags till today...

I should've known when u said "it's not temporary", u only meant it at that point of time. It wasn't real..
Because with or without me.. reallie doesn't affect u that much. Thanks my dear friend who was kind enough to pass a short msg to u today. If not, i wouldn't have known what i wanted to know. But it wasn't pleasing. u care less about all these. To u i mayb someone u use to kill time when whoever's not around, or rather to know that someone has feelings for u , ur probably enjoying d feeling of being liked at this moment. I really don't know if my assumptions are true. But i jus can't seem to prove them wrong. It was confusing , one day u were being sincere & all , the next day what i heard seems like a different u. You know it's already damn difficult for me to contact u .. i feel like an alien ,i couldnt even talk to u like others can..
Even if i ever get to c u with our friends around, I either avoid, or i gotta pretend as if nothing had happened.. bcuz they know u,they know her.. Tried that and it wasnt something i enjoy doing, just so u know ..i guessed some of ur frens actually realised something.. they just dont tell. It wasn't easy and i don't think u actually bother about wat i'm going thru.. mayb u just don't show it or mayb the fact is, u reallie don't. Why am i doing all these for.. it was for u. Didnt want ppl to misunderstand u, didnt want u to feel so stressed up , didnt want u to be in a dilemma .. didnt wan u to be unhappy! 

Y when i decided not to keep in touch with u anymore , u send me another msg to tell me u care? we've made it clear it's impossible but y do u still show signs of care?  There was actually no need for u to inform me ur whereabouts ,telling me 'im not seeing u today'  'i cant sms u today' , calling me to take care of myself for YOU , stoppin by my place one fine 'a.m.' and msg to tell me the next day u actually wanted to c me .. and askin me how was my sick.. when you yourself said it clear that it's not gonna work out. So why r u doing all these? Is it just a game.. i couldnt tell anymore if you were being true and sincere anymore.. it's not like U will ever tell me..

N to find out u reallie didnt take all these into serious consideration,it does hurt a little.. u don't explain. i don't ought to know ?at all?  
u probably won't read this,it's like 0.1% of chance u will ever come online. 
mayb its not reallie worth liking u, maybe u wont get anymore of my attentions..
i don't even know who am i to u. A passerby?? now u tell me.